andrew and esther *
Saturday, January 06, 2007 <3 tsunami
ahhh! i'm finally back to blog... haiz so much has happened since e last time i did... particularly on christmas... something BIG n realli realli BAD happened between us... well there're bound to be quarrels n conflicts when two people get together, even friends, yes... but this time i think i carried it way too far... n i juz gotta say... i'm sorry darling, it's realli my fault... wif good intentions but it's still my fault... ok i won't go on elaborating bout wat happened but in short, i wuz on e verge of losing esther totally in my life... n fer that day, i realli felt as if e end is near... this wuz taken at 8pm... wayeee b4 e fireworks started... i think they're called balls of hope (?!) fireworks!!!! n e finale!!!!! haha if one actualli realised, there's a mobile phone in both pictures of e fireworks... it belongs to some irritating bangla.... urgh honestly it really spoils e pictures huh... anw photos courtesy of esther =D well anw thereafter e crowd wuz like mad... it's like a stampede hahaha... everyone flocking to e mrts to catch e extended last train at 1am... n instead of squeezing wif pple, esther n i ended up at a cafe eating lasagne n drinking mocha... b4 getting stranded somewhere along victoria st at 2am, wif everyone else who didn't manage to catch a train... haha it's realli interesting to note how crowded it is along e streets at 2am in e morning... a rare scene indeed... wat's more, it's not only young pple but also families wif prams n ah gongs n ah mas... thank God esther's dad came to our rescue to send us home haha if not i realli wouldn't hav known wat to do cos there were only hired cabs ard... ahhh n so tt wuz our exciting 1st new year... n b4 we noe it... J2 has started fer esther n work fer mi... apparently todae wuz my last dae cos i quitted haha... well this job's not fer mi... to unproductive... n i'm actualli more worried bout esther in her 2nd year... wif syf ard e corner n all e exams... i hope i can do sth to help... cos i can see she's realli been working hard ever since school started... all in all, e past 10 days has been a real roller coaster ride... but i'm glad things turned out well in e end... n now i noe i'm realli realli treasuring every single moment spent wif esther... thanx fer being in my life darling, adding so much hue to e colourless palette of my life... thanx fer being understanding, fer being my fren, my crappy partner, my shoulder to cry on, fer loving mi.... i love u darling... loads n loads... ohhh wells it's 2am alr... i should be sleeping now but i've been wanting to blog since AGES ago!!! n finally found e time... well so... tt's all fer now... juz wanna say again, I LOVE ESTHER!!!!! <3>
i hafta say things realli realli took a huge turn from christmas eve... where we spent at her place; had dinner wif her parents, watched e love actually and spent the 1st few moments of our 1st christmas together in the most blissful manner ever... n i felt like e happiest man in e world, nth more to ask fer alr...
well who noes everything capsized e very next morning... haiz... i've realli let her down...
after e entire eruption, where things were heated n emotional n unstable, i realli sat down to reflect n reassess myself... n finally i figured out tt all i ever wanted in my life - more than i actually noe it - is right in front of me but i'm juz not treasuring everything enuff!!
ahhh stupid andrew, dumb andrew...
i gotta say i'm realli realli glad esther wuz willing to give mi another chance... cos frankly speaking i realli think i dun deserve it... it's like a bonus... n after all tt i find myself loving her even more than b4... well as e saying goes "we nv learn to treasure sth till we lose it"
i didn't lose her, but wuz ON THE VERGE of losing her... n tt woke mi, outta my blindness, stupidity n everything tt fogged my vision... i mean, i realli can't imagine life without esther... i might sound like some hopeless romantic or sentimentalist but yes, every moment spent wif her since day 1 is so special n i noe she's impt to me, n i love her... realli realli do...
once again, sorry darling... i realli didn't mean to...
so, after everything, things turned fer e better... we spent as much time as we could tgt b4 school starts fer her n work fer mi (yes i found a job as an export supervisor / representative fer an mnc)... we noe tt our schedule will be so hectic, especially fer her in J2, tt we won't hav e luxury of so much time tgt once 2007 hits... so we went shopping shopping shopping eating eating eating n realli spent precious moments tgt... n i went to her place one day to make carrot cake fer her! (altho it turned out quite bad)
n yes, on new year's eve, after not much planning n at a very last min juncture, we decided to go see fireworks at marina! haha it wuz crowded n warm n stuffy blah blah blah... but honestly, esther's company seemed to make everything a million times better... n oh yes! it rained but thanks to her parents, we were armed wif a 4-man umbrella (big huh?) and were kept dry throughout...
during tt 4 hour long wait fer e fireworks, we talked, listened to music and ate sandwiches n salad tt her mom n i prepared respectively... well i think there wuz realli no better way to end e year than tt... n after all tt talk... e fireworks came on!!! ok, enuff said, here r e pics hahaha
neveralone ;1:40 AM
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